Egads – it’s been an eternity! I’ve decided that my whole life is just a series of appointments and obligations that I should schedule, but don’t, and then I run around like a chicken with it’s head cutoff. And then I die. Sounds inspiring.
First off I will say this, I’ve been absent because the last few months have just been hard. Overwhelming, exhausting, ceaseless and brutal. Nothing in particular, I think I’ve just reached my max on what it is I’m doing, and what it is I’m supposed to be doing. For reals. Do you ever wake up and think “WHAT AM I EVEN DOING?”. No? Well I have. So I saw my family doc and they asked me a series of questions. By the end, most were regarding sleep.
Doc: Tell me about your sleeping patterns.
Me: I average about 4-5 on a good night.
Doc: Solid? Or interrupted?
Doc: By kids?
Me: No, my brain.
Doc: How long has this been going on?
Me: My whole life.
Doc: What do you mean?
Me: I’ve never slept through the night since…ever?
Doc:…long awkward silence
So, I’ve been taking medication that’s been helping me sleep. And. It’s. Weird. I get tired at a normal hour, I go to sleep, then I wake up in the morning.
And it’s helped. I guess I always knew sleep was important, but not life changing important. I’ve been trying to concentrate a little more on me. On resting, reflecting, and goal setting. It’s going to be an uphill battle, but I’m in it to win it.
So anyway, it’s May, and that’s what I’ve been up to amid all the chaos this month throws in my direction. I did not contract Strep for 3 weeks, and Dave did not travel out of town. It’s a miracle. Or a sign. Probably a sign. The end is nigh folks, get your affairs in order.
We celebrated our 12 (OMG we’re so old) year anniversary at the beginning of the month. We’re so old, that this is the only picture we have of us while we were dating/not dating (it was rocky, you guys remember.) Anywho. Before selfies, Facebook, smart phones and all that jazz. Just two kids pretending they’re not dating while they eat cake at a wedding reception. A story as old as time. In fact, I think I have cake on my teeth and I’m using it to do impressions of some poor people at the table next to us. Beautiful. Romantic. Timeless.
We had no idea , that we had no idea what we were doing.
Dave planned a stay-cation minus children (remember when I said the end is nigh), and we had a great time. What do two exhausted parents do for 2 days and 2 nights without kids?
EAT ALL THE THINGS.
As in go to all the places we never go to anymore because of….the children. Here’s Dave thinking “I may have over committed.”
And go see ALL THE AVENGERS. In the big recliner seats!
Yeah, you guys are jealous. We’re so romantic and adventurous. That’s how we’ve lasted this long. And then it all had to come to and end, and I’ve been clawing my way through May, one child performance at a time.
It’s almost over!!!!